unspoken feelings of a gentleman

life is so ruff and tuff that sometimes i wonder where do we apply or rather use all the lessons we pick from here....is there some place maybe after we are all gone that you will need all the skills we picked from planet earth or does it end with that village preacher saying "ulitoka mavumbini na mavumbini utarudi??"

if thats all that happens and ends with people throwing pieces of hard soil on your grave then am a disappointed man....am a man full of rage and anger at all the lessons have leart and all the wrong people that came my way to teach me how to handle the right people that never came my way. am angry at that bank manager who possed as my financial advisor and lied to me that i should save  and spare my hard earned money for tomorrow....a day that never came by....am angry at that  all those politiciand who used me and lied to me that i am the leader of tomorrow.....tommorow that i never lived to see...
am an angry man, am angry coz i was too busy building my tomorrow  that i forgot to live today....i was soo busy dying to do so many things that i never lived to do anything....

but who do i blame....??? is it myself  for being so ingorant or everybody else who took advantage of my ignorance....
just who really is responsible