ONE MINUTE THOUGHT

In your circle of friends am the strange one, am the one who doesn't check up on you but still prays for you, am the one who does not talk to you for a while( spell as a long time until you do) but still hopes that its' okay with you, am the one who goes months without a word but hopes you dont mistake that as lack of communication. Am the strange friend who will miss your birthday/graduation/weddings but still stay up late praying that it was the most successful event of your life, Yes my kind of people do exist and sometimes it is not out of choice but existence. Am the kind of person who will forget to cancel an appointment before the agreed time just because I missed a detail or maybe at the time of agreement i really wanted to be there for you but can't explain what came in between. sometimes we prefer a day in bed not doing anything because we dont just wanna meet people but we cant explain why. sometimes it is not us but the body takes a break and decides to rest even if the heart wants to walk out, I gues that's why nobody gives up on life so easily and the same way the heart wants to also rest but the body aint tired yet so it decides to give you a heart attack.

some of us never got the bridging option nor the costumes to even swim but were thrown into the sharks and every stride we took we always prayed that the sharks were looking the other way. We were pushed out of our mothers wombs as introverts and maybe if we had stayed just alittle more we would have been extroverts and we would have been very social, We would be planning those get togethers and those social gatherings rather than netflix & chill and once you call because we had planned a meet-up naybe we would not say "oooh sorry I was running some errands in town and I thought I would be done by now but am still stuck here not even half way done."while everyone else is bored when they are alone we get bored in groups and crowds and around people, We get bored in parties and celebrations, we loose energy amoung energetic people and have alot of energy when sitted alone. Alone stopped being a state and started to be a place of retreat and understanding for us but Most of the time we loose the battle when people are discussing social and anti-social people because most of the people discussing this already have an opinion against us.

We are the weirdos who wake up at 2am not necessarily to think about global warming but also " if the bible says that there shall be two men in the field; one will be taken, and one will be left. Two women will be grinding at the mill; one will be taken, and one will be left" then where should we position ourselves, do we start looking for someone whose sins are as red as blood before they get cleansed and stand next to them and hope they dont repent as we pray that the angel holding the trumpets finally decides to test the trumpet and is unable to explain it was a drill because all of us are already tired of being here or do we rather pray for them and hope they do the same so that when finally the trumpet is blown we are all as white as snow and Matthew 24:40-42 actually never comes to pass.

Its a strange world with strange people, strange upbringings and strange setups as well thats why I always say the only person who will never graduate is one who decides to study people.