Ex factot

Sometimes life treats people so unfairly....have not been open about my love life and though i have a facebook status that is never active have always held the status that my relationship is "complicated" and just that one time that i thought this was a serious relationship,i had found this woman that would tame me and slowly i decide to take the other route and declare my status as dating is the same night thats this woman breaks my heart...
Men are men and if they all dont want space i really need that....i know women care so much but i need space to talk with other women, i need to go and find some lone land  where i can fly free my thoughts and not have a tag on my back and not text a woman hey dear and after that it takes a whole 24 of explaining that it means nothing...
I want a woman who respects my boundaries and knows the roles of a girlfriend and a wife and not really play  the other when shez on the other one ..i want a woman to loves to transform me but respects the fact that i also have a say in it...
I have gotten back with exes twice and i wish i never did that now...now i know "getting back with an Ex is like taking a shower and putting on your dirty pants" its insane...but all the same no lesson is better than that which you have paid so dearly for it.